All I Ever Wanted Was To Be The Best For You

I really don't know what made me love you so hard. Even to the extent of not seeing you for a day meant a lot to me. It makes me miss you badly. It's been three days that we haven't seen each other. Undeniably, it was hard for me, really really hard. I know you are sick but I never wanted anything but for you to be okay. I don't know what's with me that made me think of a lot of negative things, pointing fingers to myself for being not good for you. I've been through a lot of situations that made me think that I am really not for you. I just don't want to be the bad girl here. I don't want to put stains on my name. If I have to do something for you, it would be, without a doubt, something good for you. I've been trying a lot to be the best. I hope you can feel that. I just feel sorry for myself every night for having the feeling of not being the best. I am afraid of losing you. I am afraid to be unloved by you because all my life when I am with you, I never thought of anything but to love you more and more.